Then again, do you really care about any of that?
There are some of you who have been so supportive of my writing ventures, so I do know there are at least a few of you out there rooting for me in this regard. For that I am eternally grateful. But before I get to a few more things I'm grateful for, perhaps I can share a little bit about my current writing saga...
Alas, dear readers, there is a month left of 2012, and therefore it is now rather obvious that I'm not going to accomplish what I set out to do, when I began this blog, yes, almost one year ago.
I suppose I should be disappointed, but truly I'm not (well maybe just a little melancholy). One of my greatest downfalls is setting unrealistic goals for myself in an effort to jumpstart my work ethic to rocket speed. BUT, I did still get a lot done this year. AND, AND, AND, the year is not over yet!!!
I'm flying to Orlando on Tuesday to cover an epic Disney event, and enjoy the Disney experience as it should be enjoyed: with children!!! My aunt and uncle and cousins are coming along with! I can see us now — in the line at It's a Small World, wearing mouse ears, eyes filled with Mickey glee.
When I'm back, it's back to work. I'm not going to say what my writing goal is for the end of the year. But I've got one. A big one, but perhaps not as big as that great big (too big) goal I set out for myself at the beginning of the year. As I wrote that last sentence my ego just jumped up to remind me that there are millions, upon millions, of other writers out there that could not only accomplish the goal I set out for myself at the beginning of the year, but surpass it. And so to my ego, I say, a resounding $%&^#& you. (But please ego, do not take this too much to heart, I suppose I wouldn't be who I am without you, wouldn't have learned many lessons, and ultimately that you are not me, just a part of my humaness).
So to turn it all back around. Thank you for this determination I have not to give up, even when I'm scared shitless that I've been spending far too much time on a project that is never going to work, is never going to make it into readers hands, or into readers hearts. Thank you for the courage I have to admit that all of this might be true but that the opposite could one day be true also. Thank you for sweetness. Thank you for a cozy bed. Thank you for soft lights, and cool grey mornings (yes even in LA). Thank you for support, from family, friends, the Universe, Spirit.
Thank you to each of you who follow your truth and inspire me anew each day to follow mine.